There’s a peculiar stillness in the middle of chaos. A strange clarity that comes not when things are perfect, but when they’re raw, exposed, and in transition. That’s where I find myself now — in a moment suspended between cities, between versions of myself, between memories that tug and dreams that roar.
Life recently has felt like a gritty movie with beautiful lighting. There’s routine, yes, but also dissonance — between what I do and what I feel, between the world around and the world within. I’m navigating a hyper-stimulated environment, finding solace in quiet creativity, late-night gaming, deep conversations, and the occasional moments of simply walking alone through noisy streets and feeling everything.
And so, I pause here — to leave a few words behind. These are not resolutions or goals. These are truths I want to carry, reminders for myself that will still matter 1, 2, or even 5 years from now.
10 Messages to Myself (to open when needed)
1. Don’t confuse motion with direction.
Everyone around you will be running, chasing, building. But not everyone is going somewhere that matters. Choose slowness when you must. Stillness reveals the map.
2. Protect the parts of you that still feel things deeply.
In a world that numbs and distracts, your sensitivity is not a weakness. It is your power source. Guard it like it’s sacred — because it is.
3. Let your creativity be your rebellion.
The spreadsheets won’t save you. But the podcast episode you sketch out, the blog post you write at 2 a.m., the story idea you scribble down — that’s your soul keeping score.
4. You’re allowed to build a life that doesn’t make sense to others.
There will always be pressure to follow blueprints. But your life is meant to be an original. Take the scenic route. Make detours. Hell, draw your own map.
5. Don’t settle where your heart can’t rest.
Whether it’s a job, a city, a rhythm, or a relationship — if your gut says “this isn’t it,” believe it. The discomfort is wisdom in disguise.
6. Joy can be subtle — look closer.
It’s not always fireworks. Sometimes it’s the way a game pulls you in, how a stranger smiles, or how it feels to walk alone without feeling lonely. Learn to catch joy before it disappears.
7. Keep your circle honest, not just warm.
Comfort is nice, but truth is essential. Choose people who challenge you gently, who listen like it matters, and who remind you of who you are when you forget.
8. Big moves are coming — meet them with clarity, not chaos.
When the shift arrives (and it will), don’t lose your grounding. Stay rooted in your why. Not everything that shakes your world is a crisis — some are beginnings in disguise.
9. There’s more to explore — outside and within.
Whether it’s new music, unknown cities, or just the parts of yourself you haven’t let breathe yet — keep seeking. Curiosity is your north star.
10. Your story is still being written — don’t rush to the end.
You are not behind. You are not late. This chapter is just as important as the ones ahead. Be present in the now, even when it’s messy and uncertain. It’s all part of the plot.